Embracing our vulnerability with God allows us to come out of our hidding place and grow into a more intimate relationship with Him.
I must confess that a lot of times I’ve fallen for the trap of social media. I want you to like me. I want you to see my best self. I want to inspire you, but I also want your acceptance and admiration.
But the truth is It gets exhausting. And is not real.
I realized that sometimes I do the same with God. I want Him to like me. I want Him to see my best self and get his approval and acceptance through the things I do.
But the more I walk with Him, the more I’ve learned that all He wants is my heart. And that He loves me for who I am, independently of my actions.
More than anything, He wants an intimate relationship with me. But in order for that to happen, there has to be this thing called transparency.
Being transparent requires courage, humility, and intentionality
I’ve been struggling with some different illnesses for the past couple of months. Nothing too serious, but big enough to affect my enjoyment of life - it shouldn’t be like that because my joy comes from the Lord, right? So I’ve felt like a bad christian because of it. But we’ll leave that topic for another post.
Throughout this season, I’ve been sort of avoiding talking to God because I felt shame for complaining a lot and not having enough faith or gratitude. Until one day, when I was reading Psalms, my eyes got filled with tears and I felt like my heart was about to burst out of my chest.
“Be merciful to me, Lord, for I am in distress; my eyes grow weak with sorrow, my soul and body with grief. My life is consumed by anguish and my years by groaning; my strength fails because of my affliction, and my bones grow weak.” Psalms 31:9-10
The words in those pages were the ones I wouldn’t dare to say. A part of me wouldn’t do it because I didn’t want to offend God, and another part wouldn’t because I was afraid to acknowledge how broken I really felt.
But reading David’s words, so raw, so real, and with such grief, moved something inside of me, that led me to break down and start yelling at God. In the middle of desperation and tears, I told him how much it hurt, how tired I was, and how frustrated and confused I felt because sometimes it seems like He doesn’t care.
Instead of feeling like I disappointed Him, I was embraced with the sweetest sensation of love, care, and filled with a sense of relief and peace. I realized how necessary it is to stop wearing the “It’s all good mask” with Him and be able to be transparent with what I am feeling.
How can I be more transparent with God?
Let me tell you something. There is power in tearing down our walls and opening our hearts to God. The devil wants us to hide from Him, but all He wants is for us to run to His arms.
“My flesh and my heart may fail, but God is the strength of my heart and my portion forever.” - Psalms 73:26
Being transparent with God is not only something our heart deeply wants, but it’s something our soul desperately needs. But in order to do that, we need to be willing to take action and ask ourselves the tough questions.
Acknowledge our own brokenness: Pride makes us think that we can do it all by ourselves. But humility reminds us of how broken we truly are and how much we need from God. What is it that I feel broken about right now?
Be truthful and vulnerable: It takes courage to let our walls down and open our hearts. It can seem a little scary sometimes, but the benefits of doing so are worth the uncomfortable moment. What obstacles in my heart are keeping me from being vulnerable?
Make time with God a priority: One of the biggest reasons why we don’t have more transparent moments with God is because we don’t make the time for it. Connecting to Him everyday is the gateway to an intimate relationship filled with trust and love. When was the last time I was transparent with God?
Being vulnerable with God requires courage, and sometimes we don’t really get back what we were expecting. But the beauty of doing so resides in building an authentic relationship with Him, where you can be free to be yourself and not be ashamed or afraid of what you are feeling.
We were created to be in an intimate relationship with God, and transparency is the bedrock of it.
So I want to encourage you to bring your heart out of its hiding place, and embrace the power that being vulnerable with God can bring into your life!
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